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Hello insomnia my old friend--this is a beautiful portrait of sleeplessness!

P.S. that same JB song gets stuck in my head too!

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This is so relatable! The plot spiral thought process as I’m trying to fall asleep. I read when I can’t sleep, helps reset my brain. Usually sleeplessness for me is because I’m just worrying about a bunch of stuff I can’t do anything about in the middle of the night. 😅

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Feb 1Liked by Clancy Steadwell

So I read this in between sets at the gym (it’s leg day, lot of time in between sets for me) and yeah, same ... I was always envious of those who could just shut it all down with the flip of whatever switch they have that I don’t.

And now I want to buy a Kindle?

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Jan 29Liked by Clancy Steadwell

If I don't read I don't sleep, it's as simple as that :)

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Jan 12Liked by Clancy Steadwell

Oh man. This spoke to me. I actually fall asleep reasonably well by watching something I've seen a minimum of 300 times already. But I don't STAY asleep. I have a standard wakeup around midnight and another lengthier stretch between 2 and 4am when my thoughts are bonkersville incessant. My husband sleeps like a stone through all of it. Counting backwards has never worked for me. I always lose track. They say when that happens to just pick up where you left off but that only works when you can remember where you left off. 👀

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Nice. Very nice. Alpacas are awesome. Bladerunner the best. I'm anxious to see the new Emma Stone and anxious for your next story.

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Jan 12Liked by Clancy Steadwell

This is so true (although I’d like to throw Crazy, Stupid, Love into the mix - I think the original RG/Emma Stone collaboration (?), which I enjoyed a lot) - but back to the sleep. I suffer with perpetual getting to sleep initially insomnia but also like your character, more often than not, the waking up in the wee small hours bolt upright sort. I get up, make a cup of tea and usually try reading a physical book, hoping to find myself a few hours later with a stiff neck and a full cup beside me. Sometimes works, sometimes not. Otherwise I get up and watch the BBC news channel and remind myself life isn’t so bad 🩷

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Jan 12Liked by Clancy Steadwell

When I can’t sleep under the weight of worry I play an audiobook of something I have already read so many times I know the story by heart. These days it’s Emma by Jane Austen. Instead of letting my brooding brain get the best of me I reconnect to the story- ah! Now Mrs Elton is being an ass. Or Ah! Now Ms Fairfax is playing the piano beautifully much to Emma’s embarrassment. It does the trick.

I really liked this story. It captures the internal dialogue so convincingly it could be mine. But I never thought of alpacas 😂.

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Currently jetlagged, but usually a Frank, I feel this one a lot! Loved the inner dialogue. The worst is when fun story ideas pop up in these voids and you battle trying to sleep with reaching for a pen...

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What is “the thing” and why isn’t it named? Kept waiting for the reveal but it ever came. Or maybe it just went over my head...

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Jan 12Liked by Clancy Steadwell

I think I stay up so late and so often that I sometimes just flop on the bed and enter dreamland haha. But when I can't sleep, I think about random things and reflect. Sometimes the brain just doesn't want you to sleep yet :) Haha. Oh, I also will watch random videos that make me laugh till I'm tired.

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Jan 12Liked by Clancy Steadwell

He seemed to think the fault lay within me, as if there were some internal switch somewhere I could and should be turning off but cannot find.

Unsure if he was right or not, what I said was: “I’ll do my best.”

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This moment for me really captured the character - rhythmic and thoughful writing! And the feeling of blinking, staring at the clock, blinking, not knowing how much sleep... there's a lot that rings true in this story! I'm only glad I found it in the morning, and don't now have to lie alone, counting communally defecating alpacas😂

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Jan 12·edited Jan 12Liked by Clancy Steadwell

Very convincing rambling trail of thoughts/stream of consciousness in insomnia, Clancy. Nicely done.

Thankfully, it's something I've never suffered too much with. More often I'll end up waking up a tad earlier than planned despite falling to sleep easily. Definitely worse on a hangover!

I find a good podcast is my surefire sleep remedy. Especially if it's something I *actually* want to listen to. I'll wake up and have no memory of 3/4 of it, so job done 😂

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Jan 12Liked by Clancy Steadwell

You really got that flow of inner dialogue when you can’t sleep.

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Jan 12Liked by Clancy Steadwell

So very clever, Clancy, telling this story via an insomniac ramble! Nice -- and so familiar. A lot of us certainly identify with this phenomenon. Question 1.) I count all the things I accomplished during the day, small and large. I silently recite a handful of poems I've memorized. I say the greek alphabet slowly. Question 2.) None of your beeswax. ( I don't know, do people still use that expression?)

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Exactly

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